The ghost of a scream

 Shattered

Again and again and again

Even when I think darkness can't thicken any further

It spreads it's roots deeper in my soul

And all I feel is loneliness

Tears drowning me inside out

I hide so far away inside me

That I can't even feel myself anymore

There's a void like a vortex destroying everything so quickly, fiercely and unpredictably

And I am nothing but the ghost of a scream

I prayed for release because I can't bear no longer

My entire life has been sold out

And I am once more reduced to ashes

I cry rise, Phoenix, rise

All the angels are crying with me, around me

Their light reflecting on the water drops

And fate has spilled it's cup

Not this time, yet again, my efforts wasted 

All this pain in vain

And the veil remains before your endless eyes

I bury myself under ice

I cannot afford to feel