Empty sheet, spilled ink

Estou cansada

Cansada de me sentir limitada

Cansada de buscar palavras que se escondem 

Palavras capazes de traduzir minhas emoções

Cansada de emoções que me tomam de assalto

No espelho o que vejo é o leito de um rio

Sem nenhum controle sobre a água que me molda

Águas de tristeza, de raiva, de ciúme

Águas profundas que rasgam na alma

E me afogo no silêncio que resta

Dos estilhaços do meu coração

Estou escutando o silêncio com calma

Buscando incessantemente me entender,

Recriar minha ponte com as palavras que preciso

Com a esperança pueril de encontrar salvação

Se ao menos eu disser as palavras exatas

Mas elas fogem de mim, se escondem na contramão

Minhas mãos sentem desmedido medo

De jamais completarem a minha missão

Acho que estou cansada das palavras que se repetem

No âmago da minha solidão

Nem todas as línguas do mundo juntas têm as palavras certas para trocar lágrimas por risos

Ou sonhos por motivos

Mas ainda assim, quem me vê

Vai me ver tentar

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I'm tired

Tired of feeling limited

Tired of seeking out words that hide away

Words capable of translating my emotions

I'm tired of emotions that swipe me off

In the mirror what I see is a riverbed

Without any control over the waters shaping me

Waters of sadness, anger and jealousy

Deep waters that rip my soul apart

And I drown in the silence that remains

From the shards of my heart

I'm calmly listening to the silence

Relentlessly trying to understand myself

And recreate the bridge to the words I need

In the childish hope of finding salvation

If only I get to say the exact words 

Still, they run away from me, hiding against the flow

My hands feel an immeasurable fear

Of never fulfilling my mission

I think I'm tired of the words that repeat themselves

At the core of my loneliness

Not all the languages of the world combined

Contain the right words to trade tears for laughter

Or dreams for reasons why

But still, those who see me

They'll see me try

Atonement

 Let's skip the words as all they seem to do is fail us

Instead, just be in silence with me for a while

You can hold me close, embraced in your arms

And let your head find a nest in my collarbone

You can close your eyes and allow our souls to communicate all that our minds won't let us

Let us dive together in each other's ethereal presence

And tears can finally come out from hiding

You can kiss my neck softly with the soundtrack of our heartbeats

And allow this burning fire to let loose

Not even a river of tears could put out this fire

So just hold me really tight as we merge in this dance of souls

And never ever let me go