Will the time ever come?

 My eyes are wide open

I absorb the beauty around me like an avalanche 

A love so deep, so intense

For the Moon, every cloud, star and tree

For the bunnies and squirrels running wildy

And all the birds singing as if it was just for me

Then I close my eyes in gratitude and regret it instantly 

I don't want to ever close my eyes 

I don't want to miss a thing 

I want to forever drown in the beauty of now

And I smile because after all I've been thru 

There's still such a powerful love for life in me

But I feel lost in between living what's necessary now

And that witch my soul knows it's meant to be

I wonder if there's enough time to do all I have to do

Will the time ever come to let go of all worries?

Will the need to carry the entire weight of the world on my sore shoulders and feet ever cease?

Will I ever be truly free to indulge in embracing my gifts and allow myself to stop the real world 

And enter the wonderland of an author's journey?

I've been waiting for it for decades

Unaware of how to get things done

Or perhaps unprepared to truly commit

I know how now

But the real world is still getting in the way

Of all my dreams coming true

A peaceful home isolated from everyone 

Surrounded by nature and loved ones

One day at a time, loving, caring and writing

Music, food, paper and pen

And kisses before bedtime 

I see it all laid out before my closed eyes

And that is why I still keep them wide open

It hurts to dream and see all that might never come true

💔 Liv Louback