Fragile

Clarity of the mind is such a rare thing, and so satisfying! The pain can either give you more clarity or make you completely blind to everything else. I feel the pain of my broken bone - the first and most likely not the only one. It makes me feel like I might pass out at times, but it mostly awakens me to see all that I was able to do before this bone was broken and that I took for granted. I don't know why nor how, but I am pretty sure it had something to do with fear that brought me to this awkward state of mind where I don't apreciate things like I used to do. Now I feel painfully grateful even for my pain. And I must remind myself daily: I am grateful for being alive, I am grateful for all that I learn from the pain ever constant in my life. And above all else, I am grateful for all the lovely moments I had of joy, love and pure bliss - looking in the eyes of someone you love deeply and unconditionally, and watching them smile as love is pouring out of their eyes is blissfully blessed as a newborn child. I have regained my thirst for life and my joy in existence all due to the overwhelming love that leaks out of my heart in a persistent and unstoppable way. So I have decided to appreciate my pain, both metaphorical and physical, and be wise about the many things life has already taught me. And that means HARDWORKING effort of putting my mind back in order. No more taking life for granted!