On the edge

 I want to scream at the multiverse

I want to hate everything around me with all my strength 

I wish I could just let go of things in my heart once I set my mind on letting go 

I feel so out of my own control and it doesn't seem fair at all to be trapped at this point of life when I could be about to have anything and everything 

I don't understand why I experience things to this depths

I don't know why would my innocence be restored just to be hardly shattered right after

I wish I had the power to transmute into a butterfly and fly away for good

And then peacefully die right after, that's what butterflies do

They were never meant to endure

The ugliness of this cold world and broken hearts

I keep repeating to myself that this too shall pass, when every cell in my body tells me "not this time"

So I ran over myself to try and get out of this trap

But all it made me feel was way worse

Because nothing makes sense anymore 

Not all the beauty in the world  can let me forget what is lying hidden in my heart 💔 

I wish I had the power to erase all my dreams and hopes

And while I don't find the way for that to be true, I hide myself under my skin

I won't give up until I cease to exist

And become just a fucking shadow like every shallow person out there

My soul can just R.I.P. when it's no longer in this horrifying human facade

And so goes on the battle between light and darkness

I never felt more intensely that we're bound to loose in the long run

Because humans will never choose love overcoming all circumstances 

They prefer deceit and appearances

And darkness will take every single damned last heart that beats

Until all the lights ✨ in this wide multiverse go out 

Until love is no more